It's been 6 days since I hurt my back and tomorrow I will be getting back on the treadmill. Thanksgiving has come and gone and so has my 6th wedding anniversary. I managed to avoid binge eating and actually lost weight! I felt like I didn't earn it, but to see a lb and a half come off with just my diet is reassuring that I'm on a good path for the future when I want to maintain my weight.
I'd like to just share a few of the things I really want right now.
1. I want to complete a race. 5K, 10K, half marathon and one day a full marathon. I know it's not impossible, but it's not going to be easy. I want it, so I will do it.
2. I want to like what I see when I look in the mirror. I don't want to just be ok with my body. I want this extra skin gone and I want to feel confident when I step out of the house without shapewear on. That stuff is terrible.
3. A new treadmill. I want to jog/run without feeling like I'm on concrete. Mine is breaking in two points from stress and the belt is starting to slip. Eventually it's going to die, I'd like to be prepared.
I'm feeling down right now due to not working out. I'm looking forward to it. I feel bad that I haven't done it, but with my back out of whack it just wasn't advisable. And I need to get down to training for this 5K. After a chat with the company CEO I want it more than ever. Last year the company CEO ran a half marathon. 12.1 miles. I can't even run a quarter of a mile. 5 minutes is what I'm good for. For now, I'm going to take his advice and just keep working at speed and endurance. It will all come together in the end.
My anniversary dinner was amazing. I stepped out of my comfort zone and wore a dress. I felt like a million bucks. Absolutely felt wonderful when my hubby saw me. I can't figure out if his face was a good surprised look or a bad one. I'm not sure. I couldn't get much out of him but we had company so I couldn't get a good response. I tried though. Dinner was great, I only wish I hadn't eaten so much darn sushi. I'm a sushi fiend so it was gone quickly. Left the wasabi though LOL
I am so looking forward to Christmas this year just because I feel like we did a good job with the presents. However, I'm not looking forward to dinner again. The food sets me back and thanks to Thanksgiving I only reached 7.5lbs of weight loss for November. I need to drop another 5lbs by December 11th for my 10 month weigh in. I should be at 90lbs but it's so darn hard.
Here are my stats for the day:
Current weight: 174.4
Goal weight: 159
Weight to go: 15.4lbs total of which I need to drop 5.4 by December 11th. I'm sure I won't make it, but that doesn't make me a failure. This journey will take time and I'm so close. Even if I only end up dropping another 1lb I'm still that much closer than I was this time last month. Every lb a victory every day I don't quit is a gift to myself.
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